[EVA] _Terminal Dogma_

[Aaron Clark]

> You want me to group-forward to the Eva Mailing List, that e-mail you sent
> me last January, where you yourself admitted that EvaGeeks was a failure
> and you yourself thought that fandom was in a bad situation currently? 

No, because that would be a breach of privacy.  Not to mention it is
completely at odds with how I feel about things now.

But to address your concern, at the time, I was unhappy with how things
were.  I was having trouble letting go of Eva Monkey and running the
forums myself.  Rather than contribute and improve the community to how I
thought it should have been, I decided to be negative and blame Rachel,
which was unfair, because I did nothing to contribute.  I was not there. 
I realize now that that was the wrong mindset, which is why Rachel and I,
and also Drinian and I, discussed this at length, and I am now taking a
proactive hands-on approach to things.

And part of that negative view on things was because you were feeding me
lies.  You distorted the facts surrounding your removal from the wiki.  It
sounded like classic Rachel behavior, and that you were a victim in the
situation.  But in the end, it wasn't.  Rachel has changed a lot, and
that's something you need to realize too.  What I found was that a lot of
the things I was personally blaming Rachel for were you distorting things,
and trying to earwig me into getting you what you wanted.  I thought you
were victimized, but as it turned out, you were an irreconcilably,
disruptive force within the community.  You are the very thing that you
criticize Rachel of being, a control freak.  This is why we had to remove
you from the community.

--Aaron